Emotions.
Yeah, we all got them and of course there a pain in the batooty booty. But hey what can you do? I have stared at this blank space for I dont know how long and when it finally hit me on what to write I fought with myself. I didn't want to write about how much my life sucks. I want to be funny and stuff. So then I started thinking. How can I make my life sucking, sound funny? And this is what I came up with. Please enjoy the following.
FAIL BLOG!!!!
Over the past few weeks I have been making a lot of EpicFails. For example, falling down the steps seem to be tradition for me. I swear, for about a week, every morning just like clockwork, I'd go downstairs and in my attempt to skip steps I'd fall flat on my butt. You'd think that after the second time I'd learn better but nope. I'm not THAT smart. Haha. Finally I got sick of falling so I actually walked down the steps. Feeling accomplished I realized I forgot my phone upstaires. (I walk around with my phone for some odd reason.) I looked back at my new found foe and thought, was my phone really worth the trip? OF COURSE IT WAS! So I headed up the steps watching my feet. Then I heard my phone ring and I started to book it. And of course, because my Ninja Skills are just that great I fell UP the steps. I know TALENT!
Recently I checked the mail. I know what your thinking, What's so bad about that? Well let me tell you something. I checked the mail, meaning I actually got up, put on some shoes after traveling down those dangerous steps again,to go outside in the HEAT, walk halfway around the block, to go get the mail, THAT WASN'T EVEN THERE! And it was HOT. Like, the heat waves were 2 feet away. On top of that I tripped hard. I didn't even fall I just stumbled a little. But it was so bad that I had to STOP and LAUGH at myself. Then when I continued to walk I realized that the back of my dress was caught in my underwear. Yeah... Everyone who wanted could see my purple underpants. That's what I get for trying to be nice and check the mail.
You know what I'm so embarrassed by that I don't even want to write anymore. I should go cut people with a freshly sharpened orange peel. Haha whoever saw me is gonna get shanked with a citrus fruit. Hahaha hey atleast they'll smell good.
I'm out
TheNinjaHasSpoken
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
BattleAgainstCommonSense
I dont know why I put myself through the stuff that I do. If my gut wrenches everytime I think of someone, why do I continue to think about them? Maybe i'm too nice and I want to make peace with everyone. Or maybe i'm afraid of having enemies. Who knows. You see, there has been an on going argument between myself and a very dear friend. Over the passed few months though, we haven't exactly been the best of friends. We have gotten into countless arugments and i'm growing tired of it. It seems like he's keeping a diary of my every move and uses it against me in the future. I know what you're thinking, "friends don't do that to other friends, so obviously he's not your friend." We have all been in a situation like this. And we all know how we felt during that time. A friend that close is hard to give up, but deep down in the pit of your soul, you know you've got to give them up if you ever want to be really happy. Like, without the silent tension growing between you and whoever it was, or is, happy.
My friend has had my back through it all, but he's also been pushing me over the edge. I've cried and hurt because of him and i'm really over it all. I'm at my breaking point. I have delt with his crap because I dont want to lose a friend that good to me. But it's not all his fault. It's mine too, I am nice enough to take what he throws at me and try to make things better. Therefore automaticlly dubbing me as the person who won't do crap if you beat them down. Which hurts to admit, because i'd like to think i'm better than that.
I guess I should tell you all whats going on. I won't go into detail because that's just too much. Basiclly, i'm being fausly accused of stuff that happened nearly a year ago. First of all, I don't even REMEMBER what all happened. Honestly, while I was being accused I was fnding out stuff for the vey first time! And apparently, I was involed in the whole scandle. Which surprises me because the 2 other people who we're involed, 1 didn't even like me, and 2 I didn't even know didn't like my friend until I found out a few days ago. Apparently, while my friend was away, let's call him Tedo for privacy sake and less confusion, I was secretly trying to keep him away from his girlfriend by setting her up with some other guy, Let's call him thing 2. When in reality, Thing 1 (the one who didn't like me.) hate's Tedo and is like the girls(Tedo's girlfriend, we'll call her Moon) brother. So Thing 1, Who is Thing 2's best friend, MIND YOU I NEVER KNEW THAT!, Set Moon up with Thing 2. I thought everything was fine, I was happy for her because Tedo left and rumor went around that he had broken up with Moon. So I was happy she'd stop crying and moved on. That was that. I only know what I was told, and I was told everything was fine. So with that being said, I don't see how I could possibly have guilty of ANYTHING!
But any who, who know's what'll happen, maybe this is like what my mother and I talked about. A Teachable Moment. I don't know, let's see what i'll learn.
TheNinjaHasSpoken
My friend has had my back through it all, but he's also been pushing me over the edge. I've cried and hurt because of him and i'm really over it all. I'm at my breaking point. I have delt with his crap because I dont want to lose a friend that good to me. But it's not all his fault. It's mine too, I am nice enough to take what he throws at me and try to make things better. Therefore automaticlly dubbing me as the person who won't do crap if you beat them down. Which hurts to admit, because i'd like to think i'm better than that.
I guess I should tell you all whats going on. I won't go into detail because that's just too much. Basiclly, i'm being fausly accused of stuff that happened nearly a year ago. First of all, I don't even REMEMBER what all happened. Honestly, while I was being accused I was fnding out stuff for the vey first time! And apparently, I was involed in the whole scandle. Which surprises me because the 2 other people who we're involed, 1 didn't even like me, and 2 I didn't even know didn't like my friend until I found out a few days ago. Apparently, while my friend was away, let's call him Tedo for privacy sake and less confusion, I was secretly trying to keep him away from his girlfriend by setting her up with some other guy, Let's call him thing 2. When in reality, Thing 1 (the one who didn't like me.) hate's Tedo and is like the girls(Tedo's girlfriend, we'll call her Moon) brother. So Thing 1, Who is Thing 2's best friend, MIND YOU I NEVER KNEW THAT!, Set Moon up with Thing 2. I thought everything was fine, I was happy for her because Tedo left and rumor went around that he had broken up with Moon. So I was happy she'd stop crying and moved on. That was that. I only know what I was told, and I was told everything was fine. So with that being said, I don't see how I could possibly have guilty of ANYTHING!
But any who, who know's what'll happen, maybe this is like what my mother and I talked about. A Teachable Moment. I don't know, let's see what i'll learn.
TheNinjaHasSpoken
Friday, June 11, 2010
NinjaAndKarma
I never thought i'd put something so deep to me on here but, honestly I don't care anymore. So here's the story.
My boyfriend for 8 months breaks up with me for someone else. Here's his side of it all, he's been trying to surpress the "Growing Emotions" for 2 weeks. Sceeeeeer <---Screeching tires* Hold on, hold on, hold on, WHAT!? You dropping ME for some chick you had you eye on for how long?! Yeah, so 2 weeks and he's in love with her. It all happened on a peaceful Sunday, everything was dandy and happy and finally i'd waited all morning to hear his voice and then when I do, it's all depressed. So of course my concern is growing more and more. I kept asking him what was wrong then, he takes a deep breath and say's the dreadful phrase, no one wants to hear. "We need to talk..." At that very moment I knew it was all going to turn to a big pile of crap. I didn't want to hear what he wanted to talk about. I really didn't, but I couldn't bring myself to stop him. So he continued on and told me he had to break up with me because he found someone else.
Now, I know atleast one of ya'll have had one of these break ups. And I bet you remember everything that happened that day, no matter how long ago it was. It's the break up that changes you in some way. So you can imagen how messed up I was. I mean, I really do care about this guy. Note how I said "care" and not cared... Sad but yes, I still have feelings for him but we all know it's never going to work again because i'll never trust him.
So after all my crying I worked up enough nerve to ask him, "What is so special about her that you have you break me...?" And do you know what he tells me?
"She makes me feel..Alive..Whenever I feel afraid to do anything, or feel afraid to let myself out in the world, she will help push me out into the world, and live,but not just that,she'll live with me,she won't send me out into the world alone, but she'll be right by my side"
WHAT A LOAD OF BULLCRAP! She makes him feel "alive". Yeah, he said, She makes him feel ALIVE! Well my bad for making you feel dead! So of course i'm broken all over again and I just walk away from it all. I tried not to cry at school or break down too much on my own and I managed. Like, I was being crazy happy, like drunk off happiness. Until Wensday.
I'm hanging with a fellow ninja buddy and he calls me...Congradulating my making it out of Ninja Academy alive. I thank him and my ninja buddy is bitter toward him so she's saying stuff wanting him to hear and finally we hung up and she went on a rant about how she never liked him. And me being the nice, sympathitic person I am, I actually noticed there was sadness in his voice.
So later that night I called him back, like I said I would. I mean you gotta hand it to me, I'm making an effort to make nice even after what he put me through. While on the phone with him he kept telling me he was sorry.
Sorry? Didn't you do that enough the day it mattered? Sorry buddy, I don't care anymore. But he went on with his apologies. Finally, I we hung up and I called the same ninja buddy trying to see if she could help me put the peices together. It automaticlly clicked to her, "He feels dumb, obviously something happened between him and that other girl". No way, it's only been like, 2 days! So even though it made sense I didn't want to believe it.
Thursday, I talked to him again. And i bugged the crap out of him until he finally spills his guts and tells me what was with the apologies. And my ninja buddy was right. THIS CHICK BROKE UP WITH HIM BECAUSE HE WAS MORE LIKE A BROTHER THAN A BOYFRIEND! Now I shouldn't laugh, but somewhere inside me couldn't stop tickling my fancy and I laughed until I cried. Not like happy tear crying but like, tears of sadness. Why? Because, he broke up with me because he thought we was so in love. And look what happened. If he wasn't so ignorant, he would have known I had stronger feelings for him and he didn't. But then, there was something else.
He wasn't truly sorry until he got hurt. Which hurts to say. You know what, I really don't care anymore, like i'm not just saying that. I think writing this helped me "release" any, what's the word, hidden feelings. And with that, this Ninja is out to do her daily's and not dwell on the past. And if you just so happen to be reading this, and are in the same position my only adive to you is, don't hold it in and dont dwell on it. And most impotantly, don't wait for someone to come pick up the pieces for you, pick them up yourself because if you wait, you'll become more dependent on that person than you were the last. So come on, get down pick them up, put it back together, and go on with your life. Because, if you do that, like the All-American Rejects would say, "WHEN YOU SEE MY FACE HOPE IT GIVES YOU HELL, HOPE IT GIVES YOU HELL!" Hehe.
TheNinjaHasSpoken
My boyfriend for 8 months breaks up with me for someone else. Here's his side of it all, he's been trying to surpress the "Growing Emotions" for 2 weeks. Sceeeeeer <---Screeching tires* Hold on, hold on, hold on, WHAT!? You dropping ME for some chick you had you eye on for how long?! Yeah, so 2 weeks and he's in love with her. It all happened on a peaceful Sunday, everything was dandy and happy and finally i'd waited all morning to hear his voice and then when I do, it's all depressed. So of course my concern is growing more and more. I kept asking him what was wrong then, he takes a deep breath and say's the dreadful phrase, no one wants to hear. "We need to talk..." At that very moment I knew it was all going to turn to a big pile of crap. I didn't want to hear what he wanted to talk about. I really didn't, but I couldn't bring myself to stop him. So he continued on and told me he had to break up with me because he found someone else.
Now, I know atleast one of ya'll have had one of these break ups. And I bet you remember everything that happened that day, no matter how long ago it was. It's the break up that changes you in some way. So you can imagen how messed up I was. I mean, I really do care about this guy. Note how I said "care" and not cared... Sad but yes, I still have feelings for him but we all know it's never going to work again because i'll never trust him.
So after all my crying I worked up enough nerve to ask him, "What is so special about her that you have you break me...?" And do you know what he tells me?
"She makes me feel..Alive..Whenever I feel afraid to do anything, or feel afraid to let myself out in the world, she will help push me out into the world, and live,but not just that,she'll live with me,she won't send me out into the world alone, but she'll be right by my side"
WHAT A LOAD OF BULLCRAP! She makes him feel "alive". Yeah, he said, She makes him feel ALIVE! Well my bad for making you feel dead! So of course i'm broken all over again and I just walk away from it all. I tried not to cry at school or break down too much on my own and I managed. Like, I was being crazy happy, like drunk off happiness. Until Wensday.
I'm hanging with a fellow ninja buddy and he calls me...Congradulating my making it out of Ninja Academy alive. I thank him and my ninja buddy is bitter toward him so she's saying stuff wanting him to hear and finally we hung up and she went on a rant about how she never liked him. And me being the nice, sympathitic person I am, I actually noticed there was sadness in his voice.
So later that night I called him back, like I said I would. I mean you gotta hand it to me, I'm making an effort to make nice even after what he put me through. While on the phone with him he kept telling me he was sorry.
Sorry? Didn't you do that enough the day it mattered? Sorry buddy, I don't care anymore. But he went on with his apologies. Finally, I we hung up and I called the same ninja buddy trying to see if she could help me put the peices together. It automaticlly clicked to her, "He feels dumb, obviously something happened between him and that other girl". No way, it's only been like, 2 days! So even though it made sense I didn't want to believe it.
Thursday, I talked to him again. And i bugged the crap out of him until he finally spills his guts and tells me what was with the apologies. And my ninja buddy was right. THIS CHICK BROKE UP WITH HIM BECAUSE HE WAS MORE LIKE A BROTHER THAN A BOYFRIEND! Now I shouldn't laugh, but somewhere inside me couldn't stop tickling my fancy and I laughed until I cried. Not like happy tear crying but like, tears of sadness. Why? Because, he broke up with me because he thought we was so in love. And look what happened. If he wasn't so ignorant, he would have known I had stronger feelings for him and he didn't. But then, there was something else.
He wasn't truly sorry until he got hurt. Which hurts to say. You know what, I really don't care anymore, like i'm not just saying that. I think writing this helped me "release" any, what's the word, hidden feelings. And with that, this Ninja is out to do her daily's and not dwell on the past. And if you just so happen to be reading this, and are in the same position my only adive to you is, don't hold it in and dont dwell on it. And most impotantly, don't wait for someone to come pick up the pieces for you, pick them up yourself because if you wait, you'll become more dependent on that person than you were the last. So come on, get down pick them up, put it back together, and go on with your life. Because, if you do that, like the All-American Rejects would say, "WHEN YOU SEE MY FACE HOPE IT GIVES YOU HELL, HOPE IT GIVES YOU HELL!" Hehe.
TheNinjaHasSpoken
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
LastDayOfNinjaAcademy
So Today was the last day of school. But with my week, it dosen't feel like it. And even if it did, I wouldnt want school to be over. Apart from the terrible, TERRIBLE! Assignments, I had my friends and a distraction from my personal thoughts. I had other peoples problems to deal with, now that i've got all this time on my hands, I realized I have to face the facts.
I am one lonely person.
I mean sure I have friends. But C'mon, you can't pester them all the time. It's annoying. Just like when you get a text from a person you really don't want to talk to, but you can't ignore it. So you try to send the message that You. Don't. Want. To. Talk. But they never get that. Oh no, they only see the one word answers and keep texting you paragraphs just for you to reply, "Ok" or "Lol" to. It's so hard to just, sit here. And volleyball camp isn't for another week. So i'm just sitting here. Oh joy!
Not to mention I lost my best friend to an Technology school. Instead of going to the High School she decides to go to York Tech. Fun, fun. So now i'm alone with my back up friends while my best friend is gone to bigger and better things. Ok so I shouldn't say "Back up friends", maybe something more...polite. How about this, "Friends i'd rather not hang out with everyday". Yeah let's go with that(You know you've got friends like that, so don't even try to say i'm terrible).
Ok let's shorten that up a little shall we? F.I.R.N.H.O.W. Hehe that's like Firin' how.
So back to my F.I.R.N.H.O.W, I like my F.I.R.N.H.O.W and it's fun to hang out with them, but it's just that I'm going to miss my friend. Oh goody, 3 months of summer. Yeah, a summer full of nothing but loneliness and boredom.
TheNinjaHasSpoken
I am one lonely person.
I mean sure I have friends. But C'mon, you can't pester them all the time. It's annoying. Just like when you get a text from a person you really don't want to talk to, but you can't ignore it. So you try to send the message that You. Don't. Want. To. Talk. But they never get that. Oh no, they only see the one word answers and keep texting you paragraphs just for you to reply, "Ok" or "Lol" to. It's so hard to just, sit here. And volleyball camp isn't for another week. So i'm just sitting here. Oh joy!
Not to mention I lost my best friend to an Technology school. Instead of going to the High School she decides to go to York Tech. Fun, fun. So now i'm alone with my back up friends while my best friend is gone to bigger and better things. Ok so I shouldn't say "Back up friends", maybe something more...polite. How about this, "Friends i'd rather not hang out with everyday". Yeah let's go with that(You know you've got friends like that, so don't even try to say i'm terrible).
Ok let's shorten that up a little shall we? F.I.R.N.H.O.W. Hehe that's like Firin' how.
So back to my F.I.R.N.H.O.W, I like my F.I.R.N.H.O.W and it's fun to hang out with them, but it's just that I'm going to miss my friend. Oh goody, 3 months of summer. Yeah, a summer full of nothing but loneliness and boredom.
TheNinjaHasSpoken
Sunday, June 6, 2010
SchoolCanKickRox!
I know I haven't written a blog in a while, and I guess I picked a crappy time to start blogging. But you all must understand, school sucks! You'd expect the teachers to give up on homework and projects but oh my gosh it's ridiculous! Theses jerks are pulling crap out of they're back pockets! We have a history research project due last friday that we only had a week to work on. I know what your thinking "A week? oh thats plenty of time!" NOT WHEN YOU HAVE TO RESEARCH 6 DIFFRENT THINGS! CITE STUFF! SUMMERIZE SOME CRAP! AND MAKE SURE EVERYTHING THE WAY THAT STUPID TEACHER WANTS IT! All before the end of the week. PLUS! There was no school Monday! So we only had three days to work on it and friday to turn it in! That's bullcrap! And, AND! We had a math quiz on Wensday! And a Language Arts paper we have to frickin' write. Which basically sets me back a few weeks! I mean, I manage time well. If we're walking out the door in 20 minutes, I can get ready in 10. That includes a shower and a thorough lotion down, getting all dressed up and doing my hair. (Impressive I know). So there shouldn't be a reason why I should feel pressured and scavange for more time. After school is a good time to work on stuff,however that dosen't help when you need instructions from the teacher and certin applications to continue working on the projects! For example, I have a computer that's as old as life. Been here since I was like 6, now what the heck do I look like with flippin' Microsoft Excel!? I don't even have Microsoft Word! Ever since I claimed this computer, i've been useing Wordpad! What do they want from me!? Also, our student servers don't work on PC's ONLY MAC'S! What do they have against PC's Huh?! STOP DISCRIMINATING!. So because of that, I can't get into my student server to pull up my LA project and work on it. I would have done it on Google Docs but my genious teacher told us not to do it on there. SMART IDEA MS.K! She's so smart isn't she? I swear on M&M's and Skittles, if i get another test----OH AND LET ME TELL YOU! On Monday, I have a Science test. Mind you, We only have 2 and a half more days of school. Monday and Tuesday is a whole day and Wensday, our last day of school is a half day. But back to what i was saying, a test! on Monday! I mean, are we even going to get our grades back!? And Also we're presenting our history projects Monday through Wensday. And don't get me started on the bogus math test on Tuesday! *Sigh* I Just don't understand what's with all this crap! Give me a break, I know your tired too! But it dosen't matter, teachers hate students, I'm convinced and all this crap is just proving my point.
TheNinjaHasSpoken
TheNinjaHasSpoken
Thursday, May 20, 2010
AboutTheNinja
Here speaks the Ninja. The short, smily faced Ninja. With a smile apond her face at all time's she rarely whines in a non-jokeinly manner. She's proper, and well spoken. But that's what you need to be in order to be a Ninja.
As a Ninja it's my ninjaly dutys not to expose myself. I am to be felt, and heard when wanted. But never am i to be see. So yeah. Ignore the huge picture of myself, ok? Anyway, this is my first blog and i am simply following in the footsteps of my genius Mother whom you all might know as , Alovelydai. Yeah i know isn't it an honor to be reading the work of the offspring of such a literary mastermind! I know, i know, it's so great your just jumping with joy right? Well sit back down im only getting started.
This is just an about me blog, ya know? Something for you to get a feel on who i am. Well, i'll tell you this, im not what you expect. Never was and never will be. I am here to blow your mind, and if i dont well then i'll try harder bacause when it comes to writing, i do what i can to better myself. So here i am, hoping to get some positve feed back. Which i know i'll get, but believe me im not a cocky person, i dont really think much of myself. It's just that when i right i become my own "Sasha Feirce" and with that i am transformed from Lyric to Ninja just by the click of a mouse and the musical clatter of my keyboared keys.
As a Ninja it's my ninjaly dutys not to expose myself. I am to be felt, and heard when wanted. But never am i to be see. So yeah. Ignore the huge picture of myself, ok? Anyway, this is my first blog and i am simply following in the footsteps of my genius Mother whom you all might know as , Alovelydai. Yeah i know isn't it an honor to be reading the work of the offspring of such a literary mastermind! I know, i know, it's so great your just jumping with joy right? Well sit back down im only getting started.
This is just an about me blog, ya know? Something for you to get a feel on who i am. Well, i'll tell you this, im not what you expect. Never was and never will be. I am here to blow your mind, and if i dont well then i'll try harder bacause when it comes to writing, i do what i can to better myself. So here i am, hoping to get some positve feed back. Which i know i'll get, but believe me im not a cocky person, i dont really think much of myself. It's just that when i right i become my own "Sasha Feirce" and with that i am transformed from Lyric to Ninja just by the click of a mouse and the musical clatter of my keyboared keys.
TheNinjaHasSpoken
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